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im so fucking done with everything... i cant do anything right i get ignored by everyone and everything i do never turns out the way that everyone else says is correct. i dont get respect from my co workers and to make things worse im lost in my relationship with ashley... i hope that some day that everything will work out but right now... i dont know what i should do... i know whats wrong.. but i dont know how to change it because its something that is just part of me... i just wish that i could scream and beat a wall or something right now but the only thing that i can do is just try to relax and put on a smileing face... to the best that i can.....

Nash

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so yea... nobody ever reads this so im basicaly done with this. i know ashee-chan will be pissed but well... it happens. every time i come on here im the only one that posts on mine and i never get a reply and i look on everyone elses and they have 4 or 5 or even 6 posts per entry they leave here. and i get maybe ashley to post in here every time there is something either important or upsetting me. either way all i have to say is that im done im not going to post and not going to do any of this any more


unless i find a reason to post in here


P.S. i think the total # of properly placed puncuation is 5 or 6


Nash

i need someone to tell me if they have a cd that im looking for. sadly i only want one song from it but i want to hear the whole un cut non radio version of the song too....

panic at the disco "i write sins not tragedies"

i have been hearing the song on the radio and i want to hear the full version. please someone tell me they have the cd and i will be the happiest person around

so yea... i was planning on going golfing friday morning well that got cancled casue my boss called me and asked me to work in a store that i normaly dont service. so i ended up telling him i cant work a full 8 hours that i could work 4 or 5. so now i have to get up early (4:30) and go to work for 4 or 5 hours and call and push my Tee time back till like 1030 or something close to that. *screams*

so other than my plans being totaly turned upside down everything is good


Keith

so wed. i got home at 12:05 am and tried to go to bed and woke up at 1:11am having to go to the bathroom. in the end i ended up by 3 am puking in the tub while sitting on the throne. *pauses for mental images to be erased from the etch-a-sketch and everything returned to a normal-ish state*

so come to find out that it was food poisoning and im all better now but have to be careful how fast i eat casue i still am not 100%

so there is my up date for all that care

Keith

here is a list of things that i cannot wait to have happen.

#1. tomorrow to come and im not talking about living in tomorrow im talking about 6-30 tomorrow being the day after today not the twisted joke that ppl play on other ppl

#2. the day that me and ashley can actualy have a day together with out having it to be approved by higher athority

#3. my wedding day yes i am a guy that it looking forward to that.

#4. the day my child is born. even though im scared shitless thinking about me having kids and how they would turn out but i still want to have atleast one.

#5. having my own house hopefuly before having kids

#6. finding a new job hopefuly in arch. drafting or something like that

well thats is about all for now

Keith

why am i so protective of people that i love?

why is it when you are so careful not to hurt the one you love u get hurt?

why do i feel so stressed when the one i love tells me that she is going out with friends?

why do i think that i am the only person in the world that has these problems?

why do i just want to go drive until i get lost and then not ask for directions back?

why does my heart hurt so bad right now when it should be happy and excited?

why cant i forget about what has happened and forgive the people that have hurt me?

is there something wrong with being upset about any of the questions?

why do i feel jealous when the one i love is hanging out with any of her guy or girl friends?

and last one

WHY CANT I GET HER OFF OF MY MIND?



Keith


after thought

why am i so forgiving to anyone that asks for it?

so im bored. BORED BORED BORED. well.... i miss ashley and i saw her yesterday i still miss her. i dont know why i just do. being bored is really boreing.

so yea.. i want to play some of my computer games but i cant get motovated to get off my ass and play one... or find the cd for it. bored bored bored.com bored me even more..

i think i may just end up sitting on my ass here talking with ppl that are not there on yahoo

well off i go to find something to entertain my self


Keith

Leave your name and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours

so yea i havent been on here in so long. where to begin, lets see..... work had been hell. the house is a mess and i cant do any yard chores casue its been raining. i dont want to go see a friend for a dumb reason. she lives on a dirt road. my computer is being dumb with yahoo messenger and crashes if i have been idle for more than like 3 or 4 hours. i hurt my foot so my left big toe feels like i broke it. i have gas from hell and it really stinks *remembers to fabreze my car* hm... lets see what else... me and ashley have been going out for 1 year 3 months and 7 days and going strong :D im loving every moment that i get to spend with her. im looking at schools now to see what one i want to try to get into for a drafting degree. other than that i havent been up to too much

oh yea and not to mention im going out to ionia (other side of lansing for all that dont know where that is) for 2 days for training and i really dont want to go but im the only one that is willing to do any of the training and that has the first hand knowledge of the product.

its me
Keith

ok so im back here and i may post again tomorrow later

Keith

Your Mood Ring is Magenta

Weird Creative Insipired Thriving

this is kinda me... i dont know

me: you are female. it is part of your design to change your mind. it may be 3 seconds or 3 years but you will change your mind...

ashee-chan: *busting out laughing*

i was told to post this on my live journal while on the phone with her....

Grease- Classic! You're flashy and awsome and dont

mind breaking rules. Just make sure you keep

yourself under control a little bit.


What Muscial are you most like?
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Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't. Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time. Your flirting style: Coy Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant What you bring to relationships: Romance

i agree with this one

You Are a Christmas Sweater!

Over the top, colorful, and totally flashy. You're not afraid to be a little tacky.

... dont agree with this one

You Are a White Cotton Bra!

Practical, comfortable, and classic You want your man to feel relaxed and himself with you Your perfect guy is low maintenance and adaptable And he makes you feel comfy and cozy too!

ok this one was kinda hard to do casue it was more for the girls

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

It's 100% Love and 0% Lust

You and your guy are truly in love, even if that spark seems to be a little dimmer.

ok that was a fluke....

Your Relationship Will Last... A Long Time!

Your guy is ideal, as close to Mr. Perfect as he could be If you took this quiz, you may be doubting that... Don't! No guy is perfect but yours comes really close You guys will last for many years, as long as you appreciate him!

ok i didnt copy ashleys it just seams that i have the same thoughts as her

Your Outrageous Name is:

Harry Box

...

Your Hair Should Be Pink

Hyper, insane, and a boatload of fun. You're a traveling party that everyone loves to follow.

maybe thats what color i should dye my hair

You Are 42% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side. Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

im not as evil as ashley....

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

i guess im not as weird as i thought

You Should Be A Cancer

What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese

but i am an aquarius

Your Monster Profile

Merciless Murderer You Feast On: Jack and Coke You Lurk Around In: Swingers Clubs You Especially Like to Torment: Priests

ok...

Your Birthdate: February 16

You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head. You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking. People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right. You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself. Your strength: Your original approach to thinking Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others Your power color: Pale blue Your power symbol: Wavy line Your power month: July

this is so me....

You are

ewwwwwie

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

well this is enough for me

Vince Smith: you still around?
Vince Smith: or are you a square?
Vince Smith: rectangle?
Vince Smith: polyhedron?
Vince Smith: trapezoid?
Vince Smith: octagon?
Vince Smith: pentagon?

This was sent to me while i was away talking to my mom and other people on the phone.

1. Who are you?

2. Are we friends?

3. When and how did we meet?

4. How have I affected you?

5. What do you think of me?

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?

7. How long do you think we will be friends?

8. Do you love me?

9. Do you have a crush on me?

10. Would you kiss me?

11. Would you hug me?

12. Physically, what stands out?

13. Emotionally, what stands out?

14. Do you wish I was cooler?

15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

17. Am I loveable?

18. How long have you known me?

19. Describe me in one word.

20. What was your first impression?

21. Do you still think that way about me now?

22. What do you think my weakness is?

23. Do you think I'll get married?

24. What makes me happy?

25. What makes me sad?

26. What reminds you of me?

27. If you could give me anything what would it be?

28. How well do you know me?

29. When's the last time you saw me?

30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

31. Do you think I could kill someone?

32. Do you miss me?

33. Do you think i miss you?

34. Are you going to put this on your Live Journal and see what I say about you?

You Are 23 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

so i finaly changed my LJ style... i want everyone to tell me what they think of the colors.... good bad change what if it hurts the eyes.

so over the weekend was fun... ;-) i got to spend time with ashley and she found out what a grinder is :D and barking spiders.... *woof*

love ya all
    keith